There's been a lot of talk lately surrounding the controversy of the 50 Shades of Grey Movie
I have not read any of the books but one thing that caught my attention was this Tumblr post which was the the image of the poster above with quotes from the book. The quotes portrayed the character Christen Grey to come off as abusive both physical and emotional. I'm not exactly sure if these may have been out of context since I'm not the owner of those photos nor have I read the book, but if so I am still baffled at the fact that it still is even in the book. It's giving the world of BDSM a bad reputation and romanticizing abuse. If my views don't convince you maybe this will.
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How is this relevant to what I've written?
Well I am someone who grew up in an abusive environment for most of my life, at home at a very young age as well as through school. With my past it's always been hard for me to trust men or anyone in general. I've ended relationships over nothing, sometimes solely on the fact that certain people's traits were parallel to those who tormented me. I would constantly have anxiety thinking I was never worthy of anyone.
Over the past year things have been easier. I am starting to trust people thanks to the wonderful support I've received. Dating has been easier but there is always days where I have my low moments. I'm focusing on myself by working on my self-esteem and overall self-love before I decide to be in a relationship again.
